I hate it!

"I have the sense to recognize
that I don't know how to
let you go"


is four long years of waiting for NOTHING isn't enough?
in case that you don't know, i'm tired of waiting for you!
but i can't blame you,
it is my choice to wait for you
though it's painful..
knowing that you will never come back. . .
knowing that there is no chance that you would love me again :((

I hate myself for loving you that much!!
i hate you!!!



I know that I need to forget all those things..
but it's hard for me to do.
but i will try to..


i should not hate you for not loving me.
i should accept the fact that there's nothing i can do to turn back the time. .
i should not let those memories haunt me..

maybe four years of hoping and waiting for nothing is enough.
but i can't promise that i could forget all these things..

...battle of the bands??:D

ampf!! magtatagalog muna ako.. haha.. nahihirapan n rin ako mag-english eh.. tsaka wrong grammar nmn yata ako eh.. aion..

ngaun ung battle of the bands sa school namin bilang project ng Tle department .
kami ung nag-cover nung event.
may inaasahan akong tao na tutugtog eh..kaso marami naang tumugtog, hindi pa rin sya tumutugtog.tsaka nakikita ko sya sa labas ng gate na naka-uniform lng kaya bigla kong naisip na baka hindi na sya tumugtog..
pero nung bandang hapon na nakita sya ng mga classmate ko na may highlights..
tsaka may nagsabi skin na tutugtog daw talaga sya..

edi ayon..
last pala silang magpe-perform..
nung umakyat na sila sa stage, may napapansin akong tumitingin sakin na mga classmates ko..
nginingitian ako ng nakakaloko.. tahimik lang tuloy akop nung tumutugtog sila..
pero bigla kong naisip na maging ala-camera-woman..
kaso patago:D ..tapos nakita ko si Ilonah..
inutusan ko syang kuhanan un..

tapos nung awarding na..
nasa harapan ako..kasama si Dianne..
3rd runner up yubg bour..chuva.. ang hirap ispell eh...
tapos 2nd runner up ANgel's Alibi..kung sino man sila..
1st runner up ung 3-1 ... Head Band.. nagpapanalo yata sa kanila yung kembot ni Carmello eh..
tapos yung nanalo..

yung banda nila.. ISOLATION BAND..
ampf..
nung nasa harap na sila..
parang napansin kong napatingin sakin..pero bigla akong umiwas ng tingin eh..
nakakatakot kasi eh.. tapos ayon..
nahihiya ako..
tapos kunyari di ko trip panuorin sila..
tapos kumuha rin ako ng picture..
kaso grabe nanginginig n ako nun e kasi baka nakikita ako nung jowakers nya..

hindi ko na tinapos ung tinutugtog nila..
umalis n kami agad kasi hindi ko na kaya..haha



aion..
alam k na ngang may mangyayari at may makikita ako pero
pinilit ko pa rin na pumunta,..
tae naman eh ...
pinagpipilitan kasi ang alam ng tapus na..

hai..

How I wish..

a while ago during our subject Journalism, we were asked to compute our extra curricular points to determine our campus MAMAMAHAYAG NG TAON. I really think that our Editor-in-chief Charmaine Del Rosario will make it to top so I can feel my bitterness because I WANT to be the journalist of the year so I just passed my paper with the corresponding points.

I have joined different contests. I had joined the LIYAB ’08 (NCR-WIDE) at Philippine Normal University and I won. 7^th place is not bad for starters. haha. Then I joined the DIVISION SECONDARY SCHOOLS PRESS CONFERENCE (DSSPC) and I can say is that it was really difficult because if you can’t make it to the top, if the Annexes would beat us, there’s a probability that you can’t join the Regional Secondary Schools Press Conference. During the awarding for DSSPC, I was very nervous because the 3^rd placer was announced and I told my friends that I didn’t make it because it is impossible that I could be the 2^nd placer or even the 1^st placer. I am really shocked when the speaker called my name and I can say that I am already crying..Ha! But it’s okay because nobody noticed it..

After the DSSPC, we joined the BayLayn of DLSU and unfortunately my co-writer in sports writing, Peter Barredo, didn’t made it. And out of (I think) 20 students, I was named as the 2^nd placer. And it is not bad coz only four of us (out of 10) won. After the DLSU experience, I had joined the 5^th Citywide. And luckily, during the awarding, the speaker (who happens to be my grade 6 adviser) announced my name as the second of the best sports writer. I had snatched a trophy and I had received 3 K for being the 2^nd placer.

Last November, I joined the Regional Secondary Schools Press Conference at Notre Dame of Greater Manila (Caloocan) and unfortunately, we all failed to make it. And I am really ashamed of myself because I know that my adviser were expecting even one of us would won.

Let’s go back to the ‘Journalist of the year’ thing.. i saw my classmates paper and she got 27.5 points and that shocked me coz she only won 2 awards and then she got that points.. I asked them what is going on.. and they told me something that made me get my paper back and add something. As I was computing for my points, they were all around me, waiting for the final point. And as I pressed the equal sign, they cheered me. I got 29.5 which means I beat our EIC with only .5 point!

Whooo!!! But I know there is a possibility that i wont be the Mamamahayag ng Taon because there’s more to base and I know that I’m not that good in that side. .5 is easy to beat and I know that I can’t make it..

But I was still hoping. . .

love on a shelf

I can't believe it!! it took me three years to move on.I just realized it one Sunday evening.I don't know how but as I think of him, I don't feel the same feelings I used to feel for him. It makes me happy.At last, I'm not that affected every time I see him looking at me.(though I don't know if he still cares for me 'coz I don't give a damn).
I used to be mad at him,I used to hate him,I used to miss him,I used to care for him and I used to love him and luckily, I have moved on.He does hurt me every time I see him with that girl, every time he look into my eyes, every time he passes by without even talking to me. But now,whatever he plans to do,it won't affect me anymore.
It's his fault whi it didn't work. Though it's too late to blame him and he already loves someone but I think he's not happy with that girl he chose 'coz the girl is obsessed with him.I can't blame the girl, he's too good to resist. I was once trapped by his charm.But not anymore! He's not worth loving for!

I just wished I didn't know him, I wished I haven'tmet him. I wished I haven't loved him. He just hurt me 'coz Ijust let him tobreak my heart.I'm a nincompoop who just let him do whatever he wants to do and I'm regretting being an oaf.

Though I'm single, there's nothing to be ashamed of. In fact being single is a lot wiser than being in a wrong relationship.

heypi berdey!!

so you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
so you think you can love meand leave me to die-

We just sang the song Bohemian Rhapsody this morning.my physics teacher is crazy..We're so hilarious..Really!!and today is my 16th birthday!! haha..
It's been 5844 days since i was born..haha..

for me..this is the best birthday so far. i was surprised when someone asked me.. when i was looking at him.. i just noticed that he is my crush.. what the...He asked me in front of my beloved classmates if today is my birthday.i can hear my classmates teasing us so i can't stop from smiling..i think i blushed when he greeted me.. i don't know..

haha..

oh well..
that's it!!

he is too youngfor me..

that is child abuse..haha..

but i have someone in my heart..
and that someone is a shit!

PBA again....

Again..haha. Of course I went to Cuneta Astrodomejust to watch Game 5 of PBA semifinals last friday, January 25.
We watched the first game--Sta. Lucia Realtors vs. Alaska Aces. we didn't like the game..I can't see the intensity of the game..so we just watched..But we cheered some players like LA Tenorio, Joseph Yeo and Larry Fonacier..
After the game..we went outside and waited for them. We see this 6-foot-7 Dennis Espino passed by.We followed him and ask for his autograph. and because of his kindness,we even ask for some pose.After that, he left.
6-foot-2 shooting guard of Alaska Aces,Larry Fonacier appeared.Of course we ask for his autograph and a pose..haha..
As LA Tenorio,5-foot-8 point guard of Alaska aces, stepped his foot on the floor, we come near him. but I think he is in a hurry, but he is kind. We had his autograph and photos with him. My friends, Roxanne and Sorita, were afraid of Tenorio because,as my friends said,he looks like a bad guy. I don't know what is "bad guy" for them.but i told them that he is just in a hurry.

after La Tenorio, we decided to watch again and went inside.and the most awaited game started and all of the people watching there is alive.It's like everyone cheered their favorite team and even favorite players.But the most irritating thing that the fans did was when Mac Mac Cardona is holding the ball,they always make him lose his temper.BOOOO!!!!! You can hear it whenever he touches the ball. And when Cardona was hurt, they were very happy. I don't understand them.. is it because Cardona is doing great inside the court? Maybe.

We were very happy because SAN MIGUEL BEERMEN won against TALK N' TEXT TROPANG TEXTERS by 10 points, 125-115.We went outside to wait for the players.
We saw yousif Aljamal with his buddy Pong Escobal.But we failed to approach Mr. Escobal.We only have Yousif's autograph.AMpf!
then we saw the shooting guard of San Miguel Beermen Lordy Tugade. He is very nice coz he finished making some pose and signing his autograph for his fans.then Jimmy Alapag followed..
also Jonas Villanueva and Wesley Gonzales, we were succussfully asked for their autographs..ha!



with shooting guard Lordy Tugade of San Miguel Beermen



with point guard Jimmy Alapag of Talk N' Text

PBA moments!!

I went to Cuneta Astrodome to watch the 34th PBA Semifinals (4th game) just a couple of hours ago.

of course we, me with Kristine Tud, supported the San Miguel Beermenbecause LORDY TUGADE is there and DONDON HONTIVEROS ,OLSEN RACELA and WESLEY GONZALES.

We see ourselves yelling to the players as if they could here us. We were so intense because the game was great! the Beermen tried their best but unfortunately, they lost by three points. We were really hoping that San Miguel would win.

After the game, we decided that we wait for the players outside. We waited for quite some time and the players appeared! We saw Mac Mac Cardona!! i have something to ask him but I failed to approach him because he is with a girl and that girl is (I think) is a model. I don't even know if she is his girlfriend or not. We just stare at him. we don't have any choice!

Then I saw Lordy Tugade .we approached him and ask for some pose. I can't forget the words that came out from his mouth. haha. He said,"anong babawiin?" when a fan told him that they should win the next 3 games.I don't know why i can't move on with those words. Maybe because he was smiling when he said those words.

Out of nowhere we saw Ildefonso.i was shocked when i saw him because i don't see him playing anymore. We've taken photos with him. then he left us while he was smiling. I can't also forget the word :Lowbatt!! Because of my nervousness, he thought that the camera was low- batt. haha. but he is really nice!!

We saw the 5-foot-11 Jimmy Alapag walking. He is really nice!
and I think I saw MTV VJ Kat. I think they were together.. I don't know..Maybe they were just friends.haha.

and the moment we were about to leave,.. my friend Kristine Tud saw the shooting guard of San Miguel Beermen, Wesley Gonzales together with his former teammate during his college years.., Olsen Racela. We ran just to ask for their autographs and photos with them. Wesley Gonzales is the kindest player I have seen-so far. because though it is already late, he still try to be nice with his supporters. haha.. poor Wesley. I wish he could make some sleep because he is that damn tired!

i have some secret to tell you.. (aww.. if i tell you, it'd not a secret anymore.. haha,..) Because of my addiction for them., i copied their plate numbers..haha.. but i won't reveal it. haha..


...,, sorry if i don't have pictures to prove..i can't transfer it.. the computer is having some problem.maybe next time.